May 2nd 2019

This week was another; Hunker down and get ‘er done. type of week. I am breaking down the construction of the phoenix into different parts. Last week was the body this week is the head and soon the wings. Yesterday I finished building the head. Today I will start on the wings. “How do you eat a whale?” “One bite at a time.” One morning this week, they were filming a scene for HBO outside of my coffee shop. Since I live in New York City I often see filming going on. Usually this makes me jealous that I am not part of it. This time I felt as if I was being led in this direction. I don’t necessary believe that the universe shows signs of the path that you are meant to follow. I believe that since I often think about film my brain is primed to see connections coming from the outside world. Either way, if it is a sign or simply feels like a sign, I am on the right path.

April 25th

This is exactly why I started this Vlog. To hold myself accountable. I had not worked on the puppet as much as I would have liked. Earlier this week I had a massive headache causing me to spend the whole day watching Parks and Recreation. I had realized something about myself. If I had to work at the restaurant, I would have forced myself to go in and work. I take pride in the fact that I don’t call out. But for myself and my own project I call out all the time. Maybe my schedule is unrealistic. But maybe it is also that I don’t respect myself and my project enough to hold myself to the same standard that I hold myself as an employee in a restaurant. This has got to change.

April 18th 2019

Every weekday morning I head off to one of my favorite coffee shops: the Uptown Garrison. I look forward to my espresso and I savor every drop. On my way this morning, I was listening to a podcast, “Before Breakfast” by Laura Vanderkam when I nearly stepped on this beautiful creature. He was just crossing the sidewalk at his own gradual yet determined pace. Naturally I had to film him. As I was doing so I had noticed how fiercely determined he was to get to the other side of the sidewalk. I thought of myself. It has been taking much longer then I had anticipated it would have taken to build the Phoenix. But I am determined to get to the other side. Minute by Minute I will finish this piece.

April 10, 2019

There has been a couple of issues that have come up for me this week. First off The phoenix is taking much longer than I had initially anticipated and while done and good enough is certainly better than perfect. I still have to get it to good enough. And painted. I am aiming for this week to have it done. Since I have never made a puppet this large or ever, I have delayed scheduling the rest of the short film until I can get this Phoenix done. Whew I have a lot of work to do. Secondly I was watching Wag the Dog earlier this week and I was very captivated by the collaborative spirit depicted in the movie. I have been stuck in my apartment bubble lately, building this thing and I am missing the collaborative effort brought in by other people. I have to fix that.

2nd Vlog

My website and vlog are finally up. After all the late nights, rewrites, losing the entire website twice, and the bags under the eyes I finally ready to go. I owe it all to one notion… I am a sucker for self help media in all its forms. Everything from the extraordinary Nike commercial “Rise and Shine” to Alux videos to Tim Ferriss and Tony Robbins. Somewhere along the line I have heard this idea, but unfortunately I forgot the author, Good Enough is better then perfect. Seems fitting. So True I was looking at my vlog and website, then I decided that done is much better than perfect. Bam! Vlog is posted on Youtube. I was spending hours on trying to get the right photos and fonts on my website. But good enough is better then perfect. So I ditched the additional flair I was planning. I made it simple and then KABOOM!(Parks and Rec is great) Website is done. My Youtube, Instagram, and Blog handle is Stylin’ Cat Productions. I decided when I am further along I can get a web designer. The website works and provides information. My strengths are directing, writing and creativity, not websites. This gives me time. Time to make the Phoenix. It’s looking good.

1st Blog

Right now. I am typing away at my laptop looking at an beautiful Andy Goldsworthy winter twig photo I have on my desktop and Listening to Lacrimosa from my classical itunes collection. I am a 39 year old man living in New york City. My tea is ready. It’s a cleansing parsley, coriander tea. Yeah I’m that guy. So I live at 191st and Broadway. I think that’s the border of Inwood and Washington Heights technically. I ask Siri but surprise, surprise she is of no help. So I live with my lovely wife Dana, my four year old daughter Dakota, a tuxedo black cat, Rita, named after the cat from Master and Margarita my favorite novel, and Macaroni and Cheese, Dakota’s betta fish. I have been unemployed for sometime now and recently got a new job at a restaurant which I have begun my training. Really and truly who I am is a film maker and a provider. At least that is the goal anyhow. This is the document of my journey to those goals. Let’s get started… First of all I pledge to post a blog and a vlog once a week documenting my progress to make a feature film. My goal is for the film to be completed by my birthday December 18th. I want to ring in my fortieth birthday with a glass of champagne and a really cool feature film. So where am I in the progress? Exactly nowhere. I’m watching the Young Turks, obsessing about the moron in charge and gleefully anticipating his demise. I have been writing, air quotes, writing feature script for sometime now and I am just going to do it. To make it happen. First I am making a short film with my daughter. As a side note I have been telling myself that the reason that I have not been working on my films lately is because I am getting used to having a daughter, but really I that’s not true. She’s almost five. Time is now or never. So I am making a short film before my feature. I really need to get my feet wet again and just make something. Now. But before that, let’s go deeper with my background. I promise I’ll be brief, I have laundry to do and films to make. I was born in NJ in 1979 to Gail and Frank. Colonia is my hometown and my parents still live in the same house they’ve lived for 40 years. According to my wife that is impressive. I have a brother and a sister both younger, and was raised with a slew of animals, cats, dogs, hamsters, guinea pigs, hermit crabs, newts, rabbits, fish, and snails when they over took the fish tank and killed all the fish. I had a really normal childhood played sports which I was terrible at, then proceeded to become an artist which got me picked on mercilessly throughout high school. I was in theater, playing Customer number one in Little shop of Horrors and the coach from Damn Yankees. I sang “Heart” You’ve gotta have heart… All you really need is Heart. Time for Laundry.

Back from the laundry. Picked up Dakota. This is my life. So… I had then gotten into college, Tyler School of Art in Philadelphia. I loved it. One of my sculpture teachers had assigned the class to make a video sculpture. So I had made a single shot video of a fat version of my self singing Ricky Martin’s La Vida Loca. The video turned out great, but I then I knew it. Making videos. That’s what I needed to do. After graduation I really felt like I was called to be a filmmaker. I moved back home and started working in a coffee shop. Brew’d Awakening. It’s where I meant my wife. Then I started working in a restaurant. Ruby Tuesday’s. At this point, my mid-twenties we can fast forward through the next two decades, sure I moved to New York City got married, made a couple of short films and had a child, but I am still exactly where I have been, east of nowhere. Not for much longer….

Now, I that I will post both a blog and vlog once a week, I have to get you up to date. I have finished a short script to produce titled the PHOENIX. Starring my daughter because she is here. Now I have to finish making this phoenix puppet. I have no Idea how to make a puppet. Let’s get started….